Just today
I understood grandly, for the second time in my life, what it was like to meet a total jerk. Not that I haven’t met this guy before, though. I’ve known him for more than just a few years now. But it was only today that he proved to be one of those guys who try to get you under their spell. And once you’re there, they take off, leaving you stuck in that world of wonderland-turned-purgatory.
He was supposed to be just someone who was no skin off my back. But these past few months, he was acting real cute and all, trying to be Mr. I’m-the-one-for-you. Unfortunately, it was just the cute side of him. He had another side. The jerk. The one I just met. And I couldn’t help but cringe in disgust at the thought of me almost giving in to his..well..charm..so-called.
The good thing though is that I didn’t give in just yet. I was guarded, thank goodness. But I admittedly was almost at that point when I could’ve hurt myself. Right now, it’s just my pride that’s a bit damaged. Nothing more. Poof! Still, I should’ve been more guarded.
You didn’t have me at hello. You might’ve charmed me with your feigned lure. But I got it all clear now. And thank goodness I hadn’t fallen in to your trap.
In life, losers are those who fail, if not refuse to look for the light each time they’re situated in a dark tunnel. And I ain’t no loser. 
I strongly believe that any woman deserves to be treated with sincerity. Not because of the fact that we’re stereotyped as the weaker sex, but because we’re humans, too. Born with dignity [period!]
Sure, you might’ve gone a little out of your way by staging that imperceptible manner of "reaching out". Other girls would’ve most probably been flattered. But I hate assuming. I never assume things. And I especially don’t assume that a guy is interested each time he comes to me and almost jokingly asks me out on a you-could-call-it-a-date-if-you-want-to adventure. So yes, you have been sending messages across. And I’m not insensate as to not feel that you haven’t been doing so. However, I’m also sensible enough to know that if you had unblemished intentions, you would try to give a more sincere and genuine approach. Not a safe, noncommittal attempt at getting a YES so you wouldn’t have to be degraded if ever you’d get yourself a NO. I always thought you can do better and braver than that. Lol! Brave men do not cop out by playing it safe. And they certainly do not choose to take the easier road to..uh..perdition. Hihi!
This is not exactly Kathy talking. This is an offended girl’s rants. I normally wouldn’t give a guy the satisfaction of admitting that I took a little offense. But you were a friend. Or at least I thought you were. And I imagined you as a good pal. I should have known better. It’s just so disappointing. I used to think of you highly then. Now? I don’t know. All I feel is indifference.
Thank you, though, for all of this. For the interest you feigned, I learned more than to just allow myself to be easily fooled.
As for you…time to go back to the circus. Showtime’s over even as it hadn’t started yet. Hehe.
